My name is James... I have worked in the adult entertainment industry for the last 7 years of my life under the name Erik Rhodes. I'm not sure how I ended up here, and I don't know how i have survived this long... all i do know is that it can a very lonely place and sometimes i need a blog to get shit off my chest. So take it or leave it... here it is.

 

Anonymous asked
Hello James, first of all just let me say this is a genuine question. I've followed your blog for some time now because just like you i have severe depression and i can relate to alot of the stuff you say. Ok now to cut to the chase... i saw on a comment from awhile back that your favourite type of music is sad music. Well i've finally had enough of my life and have made my mind up about it but i'm just too gutless to just do it right here, right now. I'm not changing my mind on this so can you please tell me some really good depressing music to help me work up the courage to do it? And when i say depressing i mean really depressing... say something like REM's Everybody Hurts where just the melody and the singer's voice and lyrics really get to you. If you could please help me out with this then believe me - you will be doing me a favour and i will be grateful for it.

sad songs…

1.Stabbing Westward “Goodbye”

2. Bush ” Let The Cables Sleep”

3. William Fitzsimmons “So This Is Goodbye” (Pink Gartner Remix)

4. Josh Garrels “Don’t Wait Up For Me”

5. Manchester Orchestra “Sleeper 1972”

6. Korn “Kiss”

7. Life Of Agony “Desire”

8. William Fitzsimmons “I Don’t Feel It Anymore” (George Raquet Remix)

9. Warpaint “Baby”

10. Sigar Ros “Saeglopur”

11. Radiohead “How To Dissappear Completely”, “Pyramid Song”, “Codex”

12. Nine Inch Nails “Lights In The Sky”, “Zero Sum”

13. How To Destroy Angels “A Drowning”

14. Down “Learn From My Mistakes”

thats just off the top of my head… i can keep going but i’m getting bored. 

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