My name is James... I have worked in the adult entertainment industry for the last 7 years of my life under the name Erik Rhodes. I'm not sure how I ended up here, and I don't know how i have survived this long... all i do know is that it can a very lonely place and sometimes i need a blog to get shit off my chest. So take it or leave it... here it is.

 

emu666 asked
Hey man,

I really hope you're doing well. My boyfriend and I had a war with a three month bender. He came out on top. I hope I'm not the only one hoping eventually you'll see the light in this big long dark tunnel. I remember adding you on myspace as a really young kid, and just being totally inspired by you. You're a great man, and you're brilliant too, just not when chemicals are floating through it. You can totally beat this. I am pulling for you.

Anyway, I guess im supposed to ask something. What have you found inspiration in, in the past, or even now? What's your main drive?

i don’t know anymore… it seems like i’m only trying to make money so that when i eventually kill myself, accidental or on purpose, that my family get a little money that i’ll leave behind. Besides that, i just don’t know.

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